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I don't want fucking sympathy.
If you need to tell me something go ahead and tell me, but there is not guarantee I will listen.
I'm really fucking angry.
I'm really fucking depressed.
And you know what? No one really gives a damn honestly, not matter how much I say anything about.
How do you fucking deal with it when even you FUCKING mother will just laugh and joke about it if you had a bad day, but when your sister is down, she's right by her fucking side.
She doesn't fucking care that everyday I'm battling in between fucking dying and living, and at this point I just fucking hope some drunk driver hits me while I'm walking to the bus every morning. I wish somebody would break in and shoot the first person they see, me.
I wish I wasn't such a coward of everything cause I would just do it my damn self.
Plus people been saying things that are just piling onto what I'm already holding in.
I'm so fucking sorry that I'm a goddamn emotional wreck that nobody will fucking help because they are taking care of my so called "suicidal" sister.
But who really gives a fuck right?
Nobody. That's who.
And I'm trying not to cry, but that doesn't seem to be helping either, so every time I get home, I cry so fucking much, it hurts to breathe.
And that fact of thinking of suicide CALMS me, scares the living shit out of me, but I can't go for help because the one person that's suppose to be by my side isn't there.
I'm sorry that every morning during school I come in with a frown on my face. That's because I'm tired of all the bullshit that's going around.
I'm sorry I won't fucking SMILE at something you said.
I'm sorry I won't fucking SMILE at something you said.
I'm sorry I'm such a horrible friend.
I'm a horrible person.
Hey...
Umm kinda looking for an old friend of mine...
His name is Steve and I know he made an account on here about a year ago...
I'm just wondering if you're still around.
Eyo
I haven't spoken to really any of you on here much.
My bad.
I also haven't really posted much art on here either.
Sorry...
But
yeah
There will be more art coming in soon.
I may also do a clean on my DA...just to get rid of all the crap art I have posted in the past since it makes me cringe.
But yeah.
If any of you wanna talk I'll be on here more to actually talk to you guys and gals.
Ye.
Aight bye bye.
HEY I'M STREAMING
https://www.twitch.tv/koshkaskinner
Come and watch me draw
Too any of my watchers...
SO I haven't been really active on here as of late, but do not worry, I'm actually working on some things to post on here.
AND I've decided to do this, and I want to be able to talk with some of you guys.
SO if you want to talk with me, and if you have a kik, you can add me on there.
My username is KoshkaSkinner.
So feel free to chat with me if you feel like it.
Ok, bye guys.
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uhm... hey ^^ I don't know if you're interested in my opinion and what I think, so if you do not and do not want to listen, just ignore this comment.
I really understand, why you feel depressed, but seriously... is suicide your best solution? I mean, yes, the world is cruel, and maybe you just want to end this shit. It's the same as escaping. Someone told me that the only blind alley in your life is death, apart from that there are always solutions and ways to go on. And I don't think you're a horrible friend, sister or daughter, I don't think you're "a fucking disgrace", I don't think you're "a fucking coward", I don't think you're "some freaking burden" although I don't know you personally. Don't try to persuade yourself that you're useless and no good because that's just fucking wrong. People out there need you and you're not alone out there. Even bad times go by.
I guess that's all I have to say. Sorry, if I'm just bothering you.
I really understand, why you feel depressed, but seriously... is suicide your best solution? I mean, yes, the world is cruel, and maybe you just want to end this shit. It's the same as escaping. Someone told me that the only blind alley in your life is death, apart from that there are always solutions and ways to go on. And I don't think you're a horrible friend, sister or daughter, I don't think you're "a fucking disgrace", I don't think you're "a fucking coward", I don't think you're "some freaking burden" although I don't know you personally. Don't try to persuade yourself that you're useless and no good because that's just fucking wrong. People out there need you and you're not alone out there. Even bad times go by.
I guess that's all I have to say. Sorry, if I'm just bothering you.